So.. You can blame others for everything that happens in your life. This will make you suffer and give you pain. But on the other side, you can blame yourself. Be couragious and think, it was you who wanted this.
I can give my life example:
My mom, she is born and brought up in a village. Her dad has struggled alot and it paid off really well. He was in Kuwait Oil Company. She was in Kuwait for 2 years. Then came back for her schooling then she went back again for 2 year. And my uncles was just about to settle there and the war happened and they came back.
My dad was not well off. They married her off to him. She struggled alot. And yet never complained. BUT they still brag about how much they did and if we compare nothing can beat it 🤦🏻♀️.
Then she came to MUMBAI as a rebel. My paternal cousins came alot with her. And whatever we have is mostly because of her (not too much but good). My dad back then went to Saudi Arabia, he only used to come once a year. He would send us big boxes of goods. We didn’t really get much time to spent with him. And he used to talk use less.
So, my point is when I try to understand my life, I see – I unknowingly did this. I wanted to be like her.
So the struggle that I went through was given to me by me. Its nobody’s fault. On the other hand, people have been cooperating with me and my behaviour.
Everything seems to make sense now. I made mistakes and I own them.
Lets see where God takes me next….